SPLIT (2002 SPLIT w/ AMERICAN TRAGEDY)


1. Illusion

How could I ever go back
Back to the life
Where I lived amongst the dead
Who have forgotten how to feel
And become slaves to memory
And wishful thinking
But your love has set me free
As you awaken every star
That has been sleeping
In the constellation of my soul
How could I go back to live amongst the dead
Those who imprisoned beauty
I never want to leave your arms
So I wait in hope for your embrace
Illusions of what I thought was love
Now I have clear sight to see
That I have left nothing behind


2. The Beginning

I see who you are and who else can compare
I meant what I said
I promised to stand by your side
Until the end
That's where we begin
From here to eternity
We begin understanding
It is our hearts that define
What has meaning in life
Some will ask how can this be but it
Was you who made me feel


3. Reinvention

You brought existence
To what I never thought could be
A world where eternity finds description
I followed a dream only to be left in reality
You reminded me of the unexplainable
And then reshaped me by your beauty
Knowing you has reinvented love in my heart
The perfection of loves' true existence
Experienced for the first time
I tried so hard to wake from this dream
But instead realized that I never fell asleep


4. The Pain Of Separation

How can I bear this any longer?
Arms stretched out only to hold separation
Take me away
I'm dying inside
Emptied before you
I will fight until the day
When I will see
Sight given to these blind eyes
When will I be taken from this life?
Take what is your
You deserve more than my life


5. Forever

Forever your eyes will hold the memory
I saw your heart as it overtook me
We tried so hard to understand and reason
But in that one moment
In that moment I gave my heart away
In that moment I gave my heart away
In that moment I gave my heart away
In that moment I gave my heart away

What perfect breath where my mind lay beside me
And all I knew was what had overtaken me
With no explanation I am comforted by inability to understand

Forever your eyes will hold the memory
I saw your heart as it overtook me
We tried so hard to understand and reason
But in that one moment
In that moment I gave my heart away
In that moment I gave my heart away
In that moment I gave my heart away
In that moment I gave my heart away

Forever your eyes will hold the memory
Forever your eyes will hold the memory
Forever your eyes will hold the memory

When I wake from this dream
Will your smile still open my heart and leave me transparent
When I wake from this dream
Will your smile still open my heart


6. -

[American Tragedy]


7. Choking On A Dream

[American Tragedy]


8. World Intruded

[American Tragedy]


9. Spite And Splinter

[American Tragedy]


10. Porcelain

[American Tragedy]


11. Moments And In Between

[American Tragedy]

Shadows Are Security (2005)


1. Meaning In Tragedy

Yeah

I have traveled so far to find so little
Meaning in tragedy or tragedy
In the search for meaning
Dark clouds have lead me here

Yeah

Confined freedom
Guides us to security
What if everything (yeah)
I have been taught is a lie
And all of my teachers
Have been wrong this whole time

Compelling us to fight
The battles they would not
They have already won
And we have already lost
If we do not learn from their mistakes
We have already lost

Yeah

If we do not learn to change


2. Confined

Yeah
That night that I never came home
Wandering souls captured my thoughts
Emptiness filled my mind
Urgency spoke her lies
In the confines of these grey walls
I watched them move together
Taking me places I cannot remember (remember)
We have been poured out
Into a loveless bride

How quickly I forget
That this is meaningless
How quickly I forget
That this is meaningless
(Yeah)

In a world passing through my fingers
I still chase the wind

How quickly I forget
That this is meaningless
How quickly I forget
That this is meaningless

Yeah

What have I learned from yesterday?
What have I learned from yesterday?


3. Losing Sight

Can...
Can we die to live an other day?

How could we lose sight
Of what matters most?
Trying to love
What cannot love us back
All we have is not worth living for
If we do not know when to let go

What is life
That we cling to it so tight?
Afraid that it will take from us
These fading sentiments
Can we die

Yeah

Can we die to live another day?
Can we die to live another day?
Can we die to live another day?

What is life
That we cling to it so tight?
Afraid that it will take from us
These fading sentiments

How could we lose sight
Of what matters most?
Trying to love
What cannot love us back
All we have is not worth living for
If we do not know when to let go

How could we lose sight
Of what matters most?
Trying to love
What cannot love us back
All we have is not worth living for
If we do not know when to let go


4. The Darkest Nights

For so long I have felt alone
Content to live with unrest
Longing faded into countless nights
That buried my weary heart
But You brought an end
To this dead hour
And meaning to a calloused life

Held in Your arms
But too far from my heart

These thoughts will carry me through
The darkest nights
While Your eyes rest in

These thoughts will carry me through
The darkest nights
While Your eyes rest in mine

I remember the way You looked at me
And the way You drew
Dew me cose
With one deep sigh
Scattering pieces of my
My restless mind
Forgetting all that we have left behind

We have left behind
We have left behind
We have left behind

These thoughts will carry me through
The darkest nights
While Your eyes rest in


5. Empty Hearts

I've watched them build
Upon these empty hearts

I've watched them build
Upon these empty hearts
False hopes of lossless paradise
Gathering together

The dead hearts beat as one
Stillborn comfort feeding lies
Through answers of self denial
Divided between a dissolute self
And the sorrow of sincere devotion
Devotion

What is it that you find peace in now?
Where is your hope in this dark night?

What is it that you find peace in now?
Where is your hope in this dark night?


6. Reflection

I laid the night before me
Unraveled the tangles of my heart
All I felt was stale hollow air

These streams of uncertainty
They are collapsing upon my mind
Upon my mind

Yeah

Torrents fill my veins until I burst
With mistaken guilt and shame

My battered bones
Try to keep fighting
Against the endless ocean of self defeat

As time goes on
Some months are yet to pass
As time goes on
Some months are yet to pass
As time goes on
Some months are yet to pass
Are yet to pass
Let's go

Puddle puddles of ink
Surround this tired chair
All of my sorrow has been spilled
(Yeah)
Into into my reflection
Reflection


7. Repeating Yesterday

This is what I am
This is what I have become
Repeating yesterday
Drain me of my very essence
To form again what lasts

This is what I am
This is what I have become
Repeating yesterday
Drain me of my very essence

This is what I am
This is what I have become
What is love without (what is love)
What is love without (sacrifice),
My tears hold no weight
If my commitment is only failure
Each day I
I am

Repeating yesterday
Each day I am born (I am born) again to be (again to be)
A child (a child) in the eyes of love
Repeating yesterday
Repeating
(Yeah)

Drain me of my very essence
To form (to form) again
To form (to form) again what lasts

This is what I am
This is what I have become
What is love without (what is love)
What is love without...


8. Through Struggle

Yeah

Only through struggle have I found rest
With a piece of me taken away
I begin to understand
Hollow out this machine like chest

With its gears that turn to make me feel
And assembled thoughts that fade away

Only through struggle have I found rest
Only through struggle have I found rest

Remove from me (from me)
(This de...) This deception (...ception)
(That I) That I called love (called love)
(That I) That I called love (called love)

Yeah

With its gears that turn to make me feel
And assembled thoughts that fade away

Remove from me (remove from me)
This deception (that I that I)
That I called love (that I called love)
That I called love

Only through struggle have I found rest
With a piece of me taken away
I begin to understand
I begin to understand
I begin to understand

Love


9. The Truth Of My Perception

White shutters enclose
The boundaries of my heart
I hold my breath
Till the steady beating is shut out
In silence I wait for what is real

For I know the truth of my perceptions
Nothing in life matters more
More than You
Matters more
More than You

When first feelings fade
I will still be here

I hold my breath
Till the steady beating is shut out
Beating is

For I know the truth of my perceptions
Nothing in life matters more
More than You
Matters more
More than You

When first feelings fade
I will still be here


10. Control Is Dead

Control is dead in this blind world
For we do what we hate
Split from inside
Betrayed by emotion
Emotion

We must look past
What is in front of us

Shadows are security
They have become the solace
Of my looking glass heart
In search for certainty
I no longer need control

Take me through the fire
Refine what is Yours
Take me through the fire
Refine what is Yours

It is time to overcome this
We must look past
What is in front of us
It is time to overcome this
We must look past
What is in front of us


11. Morning Waits

All along it was me who changed
Morning now waits for me
All along it was me
Morning now waits
Morning now waits for me

What I have to gain does not matter
If what I give is all to You
If what I give is all to You

I have seen the stars fall (yeah)
And the sun rise again
But You are yet to change
You are all that is
You are all that is worth
You are all that is worth living for

What I have to gain does not matter
If what I give is all to You
If what I give is all to You

All along it is was
It is was me who changed


12. Illusions

Yeah

How could I ever go back (ever go back)
Back to the life
Where I live amongst the dead (dead)

How could I go back
To live amongst the dead

Those who have forgotten how to feel (how to feel)
And have become slaves (become slaves) to memory
And wishful thinking

But Your love has set me free
As You've awakened every star
That has been sleeping
In the constellation of my soul

[x2]
How could I go back
How could I go back
To live amongst the dead
Amongst the dead

[x2]
How could I go back
To live amongst the dead

Those who imprisoned beauty
I never want to leave Your arms
So I wait in hope for Your embrace
For Your embrace
I wait in hope for Your embrace
I wait in hope for Your embrace

Yeah

Illusions of what I thought was love
Illusions of what I thought was love
Now I have clear sight
To see I've left nothing behind